Bring on the challenges!

I used to fear it (maybe I still do, who knows) but now I'm not afraid to face it. School is definitely going to be harder this year for me, but I'm willing to spend most of my time on homework and studying. If I want to get straight As, and have an average of 90%...well, I obviously have to work hard. You know, I was always a failure at school. I got terrible marks and once failed a math course. 

So who would believe me? I know no one does - even my mom is skeptical but it doesn't matter. I know my friends don't believe me too much either, but my BFF is always cheering for me to go on. I should believe in her...but I don't. I have major trust issues. The funny thing is, I don't care! Like I seriously don't even give a shit anymore. Because I believe I can accomplish my goals (how cheesy) by this year. I know I can become thin and pretty. With walking thinspo...how can I not? And with a school full of extremely smart people I can really use some competition.

And as you might have guessed already (or maybe I posted it somewhere in my old posts) I get super competitive when it comes to weight loss. If someone in real life was wanting to lose weight (last year it was one of my friends) I will be like: "I'll make sure I lose weight faster than she does. I'll make sure I get to my goal asap!" 

I'm not even joking about that. It's crazy. And I'll say things like, "you need to eat healthy, etc"

Holy shit. That is so hypocritical of me. But I can't help it. I'm a terrible friend and person. >____<;

But anyway, the friend never pushed herself to lose weight. I think she just gave up after a day and decided to eat whatever she wanted. Blah. I could really use some of that competition this year.

On to school. Last night it took me 2 hours to finish my socials homework. I kept getting distracted and I kept day dreaming and all that jazz. I still have an English intro paper to write which is due in 5 days but I'm pretty much a couch potato. I have some math work to finish up as well...then I should be studying for my chem safety quiz for Monday. So much to do...x___x; if you think about how long my English paper will be (which I will def make long and pro).

I'll try to finish all those today if possible.

And here comes the "daily" food intake!

Food consumed today:

-meat lasagna 250c

-few pieces of salted crackers approx 90c

-small bowl of rise with some cauliflower and tomatoes with eggs approx 400c

Total: 740c

o___o; How did this happen?

Also, I'd like my followers to know that I DO read your comments and I really appreciate it. <3 Even if I don't reply back because most of the time I don't know what to say. >___<

Thank you!

I'll definitely be able to catch up on your blogs.