Not really, but last night I didn't update my last post because I binged.
Then tonight, I binged again.
It's always the night now...not when I come home from school.
But anyway, about why I'm "panicking". So today we finally started our classes and I joined "ballroom dance" which is, well, you know...waltzing and all that. Some modern, some from long time ago. But uh...after I found out that we might be attending real dances I freaked out. You know what that means.
Attending dances = wearing a dress.
Holy shit cakes. I'm not even joking about how scared I am. I still have a long way to go before I'm thin. And I don't feel comfortable showing my fat. I mean then everyone will see how fat I really am! It's disgusting!
This. Is. IT.
FROM NOW ON, NO MORE BINGES.
I will work very hard to maintain my "eating" and I will exercise regularly. Also, what buy would want to put their hands on a fat girl? Not in any sexual ways, but in dancing.
Wow, I'm not surprised you're freaked out - I sure as hell would be if I had to wear a dress to dance in.
ReplyDeleteThough it's good if it stops you from bingeing and gives you something to focus on, I guess.